Things That Happen To Newborn Baby Girls That I Had No Clue About

They say you learn something new everyday, well I just did. I feel like a first time mom all over again.

  • Newborn girls may get their period.

During pregnancy, a surge in maternal estrogen levels can stimulate a female fetus’s uterus. Within the first week of life, it’s not uncommon for baby girls to have a mini period in which the uterus sheds a little blood. It is caused by the withdrawal of the hormones she was exposed to in the womb.

  • Girls may have a thick milky discharge after birth,

Most newborn girls will have a vaginal discharge of mucus.

Hormones from the mother may also cause some fluid to leak from the infant’s nipples. This is called witch’s milk. It is common and usually goes away within 2 weeks. Happens to boys, too; just not with my son.

  • Swollen breasts.

Not only can they leak, but they can swell and have lumps in them, too. Babies take a lot of hormones from the mom.

All of this was a shock to me even though it shouldn’t have. I’m glad I found out now instead of later.

33 Weeks Pregnant | Today’s Symptoms

Just yesterday and the day before I was feeling great. Maya has officially dropped into the birth canal and is no longer karate kicking me in the ribs. Even with her dropping lower, I was in less pain and was able to do some chores around the home. I felt fantastic. Today, not so much. I feel like crap. The constant cramping, sharp pains on the left side of my belly, dreadful sciatica and the painful back aches has made this a very trying day. Did I mention that I’ve gone back to being very exhausted and sleepy? It wasn’t 48 hours ago when I was full of energy and waking up before my early bird fiancé.

Another thing that I wasn’t experiencing before 32 weeks was the constant need to go to the bathroom. Now, I’m taking a piss 3-4 times in an hour. Before I was just going every couple of hours and that’s with drinking gallons of water. I’m now getting up every night at least three times to go to the bathroom and I’ve stopped my fluid consumption way before bed and end up using the bathroom 2-3 times prior.

The upside? Even though I shouldn’t and even though I don’t stay on my back that long because my conscience wakes me up and tells me to roll to my side, I can fucking lay on my back and actually be damned comfortable. I’ve missed that. I’ll be glad when I can sleep on my tummy again.

My Response to Mommyish’s ’10 Things Not To Say To An Atheist Mom’

It’s long overdue and I’ve been holding back from doing this blog, but I’m bored so…

Here’s the link: Mommyish.

I was subscribed to this website’s blog for a while. I’ve always had this feeling that some of the writers post things out of their realm of comfort; especially about  atheism. A lot of their posts about atheism are labeled wrong. It’s like they have an agnostic write those posts, or someone that’s not an atheist at all. Anyway, moving on.

 10. “What if you’re wrong?”

That isn’t something you need to worry about. I’m not trying to force my lack of beliefs on you, and if I’m wrong, so be it. I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it. But I live a good life, and I would hope that a just and loving deity would be okay with that. -Mommyish

If you’re going to be open and out about your atheism, you should be open to people asking questions. Answering this question isn’t forcing your lack of beliefs on them. They asked. I notice the sarcasm and condescending undertones of the response, but “a just and loving deity” is just falling right into their trap. That leaves you open for a harsh response.

9. “What stops you from stealing/lying/punching babies in the throat?”

I think I get my morality the same place everyone else gets theirs, whether they know it or not. My conscious. Why don’t I steal? It’s wrong to take something I didn’t earn. Why don’t I lie? It’s wrong to tell untruths. Why don’t I punch babies in the throat? How would I eat them, then? Common sense, y’all! -Mommyish

Seriously? Is this a serious list? I’m only at number nine and I’m already amused that my expectations were higher than they should be. This is another question that should be answered. Listen, if these people are asking you these questions, they must want to know, right? If they’re saying shit like “You’re an atheist, so you have no morals!” then okay, fine. Again you’re open and out about your atheism, answer the question. The baby eating? Why even entertain that with an answer? That’s what kills me. They say these things knowing it’s not true to get under your skin. Take note at the jail population, notice how most of them aren’t atheists, which leads me to believe babies are staying out of atheist’s stomachs. Give them that tidbit and they’ll realize they need new material. They ask a stupid question, give them a solemn answer. Don’t fall into their trap and get pissy, that’s what they WANT you to do. People ask that when they’re out of regurgitated rebuttals.

8. “It must be sad to have such an empty life!”

Nope, my life is just fine. Have I had my fair share of trials and tribulations? Of course, but everyone does. There isn’t a god-shaped hole in my heart any more than there’s a Flying Spaghetti Monster-shaped hole in yours. -Mommyish

As I edge closer to the end of this list, I’m convinced that a lot of these “things” should have the same response.  I can come up with a better list of things not to say to an atheist mom. That are actually RELEVANT.

7. “Why do you hate god?”

You can’t hate something you don’t think exists. I don’t hate your god anymore than you hate the thousands of gods folks have believed in since the dawn of time. Everyone is an Atheist, I just believe in one less god than you do. -Mommyish

I just noticed something. These statements have shit to do with an atheist mom – just an atheist. Anyone would say this to any atheist, not just a mother. OMG.

6. “You have to have faith!”

No, I don’t. It’s great that you do, and I would fight for your right to believe, but I don’t have to have faith in anything. -Mommyish

If this ruffles your feathers, get over it. Again, you’re open with your atheism. Some statements does not call for a response. This is one of them. Pick your battles. You’re a mom first. What does this have to do with an atheist mom, again? I’m still trying to figure that out.

5. “It’s all right there in the bible.”

That argument hold as much water with an Atheist as saying “It’s all right there in harry Potter” does to you. Not because we hate your bible, but because we don’t follow it and don’t believe in it. Simple as that. -Mommyish

At what point are you not expecting this to be said to you? I have to ask again, what does this have to do with being an atheist MOM? You should just live in your home, remove yourself from social networking, or keep your atheism to yourself if this is something you hate being said to you.

4. “Atheism is a religion, too.”

There might be a cult of personality surrounding certain controversial Atheist figured (think Richard Dawkins or Christopher Hitchens) but no, Atheist is NOT a religion. It’s the simple lack of a beliefs in deities. And blaming Atheism in general for the epic douchebaggery of certain zealots is like blaming Christianity for the Westboro Baptists.

See #5.

3. “You must be an angry person.”

You wouldn’t like me when I’m angry…thankfully I’m not an angry person though. -Mommyish

Mommyish’s post should be titled “What not to say to me since I’m an atheist and you know I am”.

2. “I feel sorry for your children.”

Why? I don’t. They are compassionate, loving, wonderful kids who just happen to not believe in your god or any other god. This does not constitute a CPS case. -Mommyish

Finally! This one is about being an atheist mom. Were the other statements fluff statements to climax to the real statement that has something to do with being an atheist mom? I think so.

1. “You’re a bad mom for not giving your kids religion”

This is one of the only things that truly pisses me off. How dare you tell me I’m a bad mom. My kids are loved and happy, and I refuse to let someone else’s expectation of what their “moral” upbringing should be dictate my worth as a mom. -Mommyish

How did this list start? Ascending or Descending? I’m only asking because the relevancy of this post is at the very bottom. It’s like the entire post is irrelevant until you get to the last two statements. When you make a post like this, it should be relevant through and through, not at the end. That’s like a really bad B-movie. “This is one of the only things that truly pisses me off” Really? Then why didn’t you just make a post about what pisses you off when religious zealots ask you obnoxious questions instead of making this pointless ass list?

I’ll be glad when the need to add .gifs to every blog post to support or convey an argument comes to an end.

Never Again…

Something told me not to step foot back into Akron City’s Women’s Health Center, something told me when I had that first complaint to get my ducks in a row and go somewhere else. If I was reconsidering going back to that place, that reconsideration is long gone. I went to this last appointment because it was already scheduled and I’m getting too close to my due date  that I fear no one else will take me; that and they happened to switch nurse practitioners for me. Well I ended up cancelling that appointment while I was there. Here’s why:

I arrived at my appointment a little early because my cab driver is always on time and he usually gets me there pretty early. In the past I would go in, sign in and sit down. Only once have I gotten there and they actually taken me back early. Other times, they tell me to get a urine sample and that they’ll take me back early. I’m never concerned about whether I get seen early or not. I just get there when I get there – which happens to be early. Today was different. I get there early at 8:43 am, I sign in, the woman at the desk calls my name to come back up so she can get my name and insurance card. Asks me when I’ll be due and then tells me that this hospital will no longer be taking CareSource after November. That pissed me off, why I don’t know, after today I won’t be back here. Anyway, there was no issue with me signing in so early, she didn’t mention how early I signed in and how it would be a problem when she asked me when my appointment was.

I go and do my business in the bathroom with the urine sample and stick in the door they have in  the bathroom and sit down. Time and time roll by and it’s 9:30, then 9:41, then 9:53. I realized it’s been 20 minutes after my appointment – like the sign says – so I head up to the desk. She didn’t even have to ask me why I was standing there, she didn’t let me get a word out. She looks at me and says. “You haven’t been seen yet?” I tell her no and she then says. “What’s your name again?” I tell her my name and she do a little clicking at the computer and then asks me what time my appointment was, I tell her 9:30. She clicks away and someone walks up and then walks away and before they can get earshot away from her, she asks them, “What’s RTR?” Neither one of them knows. I don’t find that surprising at all. It looks like that’s the slogan for Summa Hospital: “Get your care here, but don’t ask any questions because we don’t know!” She then tells me that someone was ahead of you at 9:15. Well that’s fine, my appointment wasn’t until 9:30. I ask her well, “it’s 9:53, what’s taking them so long?” She get’s defensive and annoyed and says, “I DON’T KNOW I’M JUST READING WHAT IT SAYS!” Okay, I tell her to just cancel the appointment. That’s when she tells me that I shouldn’t have signed in early. She then tells me that you shouldn’t have sign in early because we don’t take people in early. I had to KINDLY remind her that I knew that and wasn’t expecting to be called in early, even though the waiting room was practically empty when I got there, took a piss test and sat down. It was past my initial appointment time by over 20 minutes, what does me signing in early have to do with anything?

So, I was penalized for signing in early. All the signs on that window at that desk and there wasn’t one up there that said I could not sign in early. Okay. Not once did she tell me to wait to sign in if you’re early so you don’t get overlooked or not called on. The women’s health center in Akron on 75 Arch St. has to be the most incompetent doctor’s office I’ve ever had an experience with. I would rather have my child on the side of the road before I go back there. Trust me, I won’t be going back there and I won’t have anything nice to say to anyone who ask me where they should go for women care either. Avoid that place like the plague. Especially if you make a prior complaint, because then they just take it out on you.

32 weeks pregnant and I have to deal with this nonsense?


I Remember This Pain When I Was Giving Birth

When my son was sitting on my pelvis right as he was coming out, that’s the pain I’m feeling right now. It’s very painful, but there’s not much I can do about it. Everything I do seems to make it worse or not help it at all. Soaking in a warm bath doesn’t work. Tylenol doesn’t work. Sitting on my maternity ball doesn’t work. Sitting still doesn’t work. The throbbing, sharp pains are still there and there seems to be no relief. It takes me 10 minutes to walk from my computer to the kitchen to the bedroom. I have to use my son’s old stroller as a walker to get from place to place. I can barely take this pain, but I have to, I must.

The pain is on the left side of my body and it is getting worse. Soon as I felt it, the memories of the pain came back. I’m not sure how typical it is for a mother to remember the pains from the first labor, but here I am. I hope it goes away soon.

This Pregnancy is Definitely Different

I should have known this wasn’t going to be an easy pregnancy when the morning sickness was worse this time around than the last. The constant feeling of needing to vomit but never do was annoying.

Last pregnancy:

  • Horrible morning sickness – couldn’t eat for weeks.
  • Stress levels were much greater. Suicide/regretting being pregnant and fighting against having an abortion weighed heavily on my mind.
  • Sciatica was manageable.
  • Restless leg syndrome was random but rare.
  • Getting married felt like a chore and more of an obligation for my unborn child than me actually wanting to be with the person I married.
  • Didn’t experience Braxton hicks contractions.
  • No menstrual-like cramping.
  • Huge belly, couldn’t see my feet at 30 weeks.
  • No lower back pain.
  • Few instances where there was any pelvic pain or pressure.
  • Could still walk 3-4 miles a day while pregnant.
  • No Charlie horses.
  • Had a down syndrome scare. Doctors saw abnormalities in my blood.
  • Father didn’t show up for the doctor’s appointments, especially the one where they had to sit down with me and discuss both sides of the family’s bloodline and if there were anyone with cancer, down syndrome, etc.
  • Got kicked out of home at 7-months – twice. Once from blood family and second from baby’s father.

This pregnancy:

  • Pregnancy was planned.
  • Stress levels were nowhere near to what they were last pregnancy.
  • Everything in my being wants to marry the father of my child and spend the rest of my life with him.
  • I got to take part in naming my child instead of being guilt-tripped into naming the child what the father wanted the name to be.
  • Left my grandmother’s home for good.
  • Sciatica almost disable me to a vegetable everyday. I can barely walk most days, there’s no relief other than waiting it out.
  • Restless leg syndrome is every night – have to put my left arm to sleep to get it to stop.
  • Speaking of sleepy arms: My right arm fell asleep two days ago and has never fully woken up. My pinky on that arm is still feel numb and when I touch it, the sensation feels funny.
  • Morning sickness came back in third trimester.
  • Maya is kicking me extra hard and causes soreness and pain everyday. Her kicks have been strong since 18 weeks.
  • Breasts are much bigger and I’m sure the milk hasn’t developed yet.
  • More confident in breastfeeding and hopefully I’ll produce more this time around. I have a better support system.
  • Actually feel the Braxton Hicks contractions this second time around. They’re very uncomfortable.
  • Experiencing a hell of a lot more menstrual-like cramping. Didn’t feel it at all with my last pregnancy.
  • No lower back pain.
  • Can still see my feet at 31+2 weeks.
  • Cannot walk for very long lengths of time. Consequences and repercussions were paid in full the following morning.
  • A hell of a lot of Charlie horses.
  • Extreme amount of discharge.
  • Sexual libido actually came back. Probably had a lot with being attracted and in love with the person I’m with.
  • Fiance is taking part in the pregnancy by supporting me, helping me, being there for me and show up to doctor’s appointments.

So yea…even though I’m in more pain, I’m much happier and my child is happy. I just hope I’ll be able to start my EMT classes in the Spring of next year.



Lightning Boobs!

If you clicked here because you wanted to see Lightning’s Boobs – from Final Fantasy – jiggle, you’re going to be disappointed.

This post is about the sharp pains – also known as lightning boobs – in my breast. This pregnancy has been much different than my last, but I wasn’t expecting it to be the same.

I’m in my third trimester and the sharp pains are random, but they make me stop what I’m doing every time. It starts near the top of my breasts and then go straight to my nipples. Or, it starts at my nipples and travel around my areolas.

Doing a Google search hasn’t actually given me anything to work with. The articles I’ve found mention sore and tender breasts, but nothing about the sharp pains. Of course once I’ve switched to another hospital, I will be asking them about it. I’m sure it’s just my body getting ready for the arrival of Maya. I just wish it didn’t hurt so much.

No pain, no gain I guess.

I Keep Dying In My Dreams

They all say pregnancy dreams are weird and that they’re more vivid and pronounced. Well, mine are – when and if I remember them – are about death. I moved in to my apartment in August and I’ve had two dreams about dying.

Someone how, in the first one, I electrocute myself in the kitchen and I walk around the island/counter and head into the living-room area and I fall down and die. In the second one, I’m getting out of bed but everything is very hazy. It was like I had tunnel vision. This one is a bit weird. I’m walking out of the bedroom and I can barely stand up. I make it to the bathroom door and I fall and push it open. I end up dying on my fiance’s lap while he’s sitting on the toilet.

In both dreams, I’m pregnant. In both dreams my fiancé is in another room and doesn’t see the events prior to me dying. In both dreams, my son is no where around. In both dreams I fall down and die. The only difference in this last one is that I could actually feel – or it was a weird sensation – myself as if I was passing away. It felt like my life was leaving my body. It was really weird and I think that feeling is going to stay with me.

I May Have To Switch Hospitals | Nurse Practitioners At Akron City Hospital Are The Worse

Let’s just say not all of the nurse practitioners are bad, but between getting switched to another doctor without any explanation to why to my recent appointment, I’m saddened, frustrated, and disgusted.

At my recent appointment, I felt more like a number than a patient. The doctor I had (we’ll just call her MK – those are her initials) was very rude and couldn’t answer most of my questions; questions she should be familiar with. She didn’t even know that RLS means Restless Leg Syndrome and that some women get it during pregnancy. I had it during my last pregnancy and it went away soon after I had my son. I had to educate her on the matter. After I mentioned the RLS and  how I have to put my arm to sleep to make it stop she just told me she has no clue what to do about that and to talk to someone else about it. The other responses to my questions were “I don’t know” or “You’re wrong, that’s not pregnancy”. When MK wasn’t cutting me short, she was being rude and dismissing my concerns to the questions that she could answer. She couldn’t even be thorough with the information she did give me. She just handed me my papers and was on her way. Neglected to even prescribed me the constipation medicine I needed. She was so ready to leave out of the room, I just let her go. It wasn’t worth the oxygen I’d need to express my frustrations with her. When talking about my concerns she didn’t engage beyond what I was saying, she just cut me off at times and wouldn’t allow me to explain. I felt rushed and tuned out.

MK didn’t care that I had pain all over and that I could barely walk due to the pain. When I told her there’s blood in my stool along with the constipation she prescribes me a powdery substance you put in water – that was to handle my constipation.. I never got that script. Again, I was too frustrated with her responses to go in further with my other questions and concerns such as the times where I’m in a resting position, IE: sitting down in a chair, I lose my breath and it feels like someone is sitting on my chest. I wanted to cry! I know, I know, I’m pregnant and people would excuse my feelings due to hormones, but this wasn’t hormones. She was being rude, impatient, and unnecessary standoff-ish to my questions and concerns.  I was already close to tears due to how much pain I was already in and how walking was such a task I was close to being in a wheelchair. I wanted to talk about induction on my due date, but she would have probably gotten much ruder. I don’t need that kind of rudeness right now as bad as I was feeling.

I’m 30 weeks pregnant – due date 12/13/14. I shouldn’t have to go through this so late in my pregnancy – or early in ANY pregnancy. I don’t know if I should or can file a complaint against that nurse, I think I should just start going to a different doctor since I have that option. Maybe I should just go to Akron Children’s Hospital and see how they fair; hell, I’m fine with going back up to Rainbow Babies & Children’s hospital in Cleveland and have my daughter there if I could get there; I loved that hospital. Anything is better than the amount of disrespect and care I received at my last appointment.

The more I think about it, the worst I feel about how I was treated. I will be calling Akron City / Summa Hospital / Summa Physicians / Women’s Health Center first thing in the morning to let them know that I’m transferring my care to another hospital. Are all Summa Hospitals like this? I hope not.

I also don’t appreciate not being made clear about the students that pop up at random to my appointments. I wasn’t made aware of it and I can’t find it in any of the agreements they made me sign. I don’t appreciate being told that this student will be in on the appointment with me without giving me an option to opt out of that kind of care. Being worked on by a student and having them poke me and measure me so they can get an idea on how-to do it wouldn’t have been a problem if I would have been given a warning. Another thing that RB&C seems to do correctly. No one is forcing me to go to AC so I won’t be. I’ll go somewhere else and hopefully the doctors don’t treat me like crap. Where if you ask if could they change the channel from the FOX NEWS channel, they don’t roll their eyes and tell you no in such a manner you would think I’d asked them if I could have their first-born.

My Birth Plan

I made a birth plan for my last pregnancy and it totally didn’t go as planned – not even in the slightest. I’m entertaining a birth plan again this time. Luckily, the hospital I’m hoping to have my child at – if I make it there – has a nifty birth plan form on their website. Here it is:


There are some other things that I would like that they didn’t have an option for:

  • I’m breastfeeding so I want to be able to have to baby latch without pain and try different breastfeeding positions.
  • I want to be able to nurse often and know that Maya is nursing well.
  • Meet with a lactation consultant.
  • Keep my baby with me in my room.
  • I do not want my child to have a pacifier or bottle.

Most of all, I would like a healthy pregnancy. So far minus the contractions, I’ve had just that.